¡Bienvenidos! I’m Mariana, an island-born, U.S.-raised Puerto Rican mother of two. My husband, Eric, is Mexican and together we are proud and blessed to celebrate our lives together as a culturally diverse, MexiRican family.
Project Unfluff gets its name from my desire to cut back on the things that only serve as distractions. At first, I began this blog to write about my journal to lose weight (which I referred to as “fluff”). I started that part of my journey in 2012 by with workouts and Weight Watchers in between my two kids.
My mind and my heart have been at odds with my physical body ever since I was a child. Food has always been my vice of choice when dealing with emotions I didn’t know how to process or move past. I have lost count of the times I binged my way through loneliness, anxiety and even boredom. This behavior began in elementary school and continues even now. I moved around a lot throughout my entire life and the anxiety from starting over with new friendships and new cities drove a lot of my binge eating behavior.
I learned quickly that it’s not just the physical “fluff” that weighs me down. Unhealthy relationships with things that distract me from dealing with my problems and my anxiety are all “fluff” too. These relationships can be with food, alcohol, a sedentary lifestyle and/or people that do nothing to empower or support me.
I love my body immensely, it has blessed me with a happy and fulfilling life and for the most part, I am relatively healthy. I’ve been through two healthy pregnancies and deliveries and [knock on wood] we have no major health ailments at the moment. But with two kids now watching our every move, making healthier choices is critical not only to our health but their’s too.
Project Unfluff is about paying my body back for all the years of abuse and neglect I have put her through. This is not a weight loss site, this is an on-going love letter to myself, my life and my health to make-up for all of the years I have lost. I hope she takes me back.